Lgbt: i'm confuse, dealing with older women?.....?

i'm 21, and my gf is 29, we been going out for 7month now, our Anniversary in 2days, and we'll make 8month, right now were going through alot..she bought my ticket back to hawaii, but i don't lived with her because her mom doesn't like the gayness lifestyle, so i'm staying at her friend's house, so not too long ago when i drop her off to work, and she ask me to come at her lunch break, so as i was driving, i had an incident and hit the other car, so now i don't have a job yet,and no family to help with the insurance, and im trying to help...and now lately no car to get around, and i barely see her alot, or hangout with her, and sometime i have need ually and she can't really do anything cuz no more car, but the point of this story is that, i feel like when i do see her, i'm more affectionate then she is, i feel like she still ashame and is afraid to be all affectionate when around her friends, doesn't make sense to be ashame when her friend know about her lifestyle, idk, i feel like im asking too much of her attention, is just that i can't help it if im soooo in love with her, ...but anyways i never took a bus b4 my whole life, and i went N catch the bus to her workplace cuz she ask me to catch it together, and when i was there, she didnt seem sooo appricitive, i feel so confuse, and i told her why she was actin like that, and she just shake her head saying shes ok when i knw shes not, but long story short....now i feel like shes playing with my emotional, n i feel kindda fed up, i txt her that n she told me to leave...and now im just like wtf? idk what to do?..what should i do?